The Story of My Life

Well, I'm doing better than I was. I think school has helped me get over it a little faster. I've been SO ready for this year! I'm going to get this year started AND ended right! My HIGH goal is to have a 4.0 the majority of the year. Yeah, I know. I'm gonna have to work my butt off! Specialy since I have guard and work, but I'm dedicated enough that I think I'll get close. My more realistic goal is to have atleast a 3.5 on every report card. I like most of my classes and strangely enough, I'm getting to the point where I LIKE learning! I like learning about things I don't know! My first period is French. I like this teacher alot more and it seems like HE actualy knows what he's doing. I just hope we start learning soon instead of just discussing random things. Like the day of the week in French and stuff like that. My second period is Psychology I. I LOVE MR. MALOY!! He's SO cool! I also found out that one of my guard girls, Allison, is his step daughter! AWESOME! Anywho... they way he talks about the class and the obvious passion he has about the subject even peaks my interest even more! I can't wait to get REALLY into that class. My third period is Economics. I think it's a boring subject, but like I said before, I'm starting to like learning about things I really don't know anything about. Economics would be one of them. My fourth period is Pre-Calculus. Yep, I have Mrs. Richmond again, but I guess I'll live. Plus Tiffany, Arika, and Gina are in that class with me! Also, as of last year, I tend to like doing math. I think it's kinda fun to solve all those little equations and see if I can get'em all right. My fifth period is weight lifting. Another class I'm pretty excited about. I really wanna work on my body and stuff. I've been getting into some yoga, pilates, and I've been running some too. Sixth I have english. The teacher, Mrs. Hatcher, seems kinda moody, but she's kinda cool some of the time. Plus, me, Tiffany, and Shanna think she's gonna cook and eat one of us. Me and Tiff are betting, and hoping, it's Shanna, cause she's small. LMAO! Of course my seventh is guard. So, I like mys schedule pretty much... well, I g2g to bed.

much love,
BAMA

OMG!!! I suddenly feel like my whole world just got torn apart.. and ripped right in front of me! I was SO happy... for the first time ever! I was in a TRUE relationship... one where I felt loved, appreciated, and I felt like someone. I don't get it! Just the other week we were talking about houses and what it would be like to live in Del Mar California! We were even LOOKING up houses! Then this... I don't get it... before I met him, I always felt like something was missing. That something was wrong. Then I met him and I didn't feel that way anymore. Even tho he was straight I LOVED just being around him and hanging out with him! I fell in love with him so much that I didn't care if we were actualy together, cause just the thought of being around him made me warm inside.. then, he told me that he was bi and he wanted to be mine! I felt complete! It's a feeling I've never known before! It was the best feeling EVER! Now it's all gone... we're now "just friends". W/e that means.. and I just feel numb.. evernow and then I feel the pain and it shows in tears.. everybody could tell I was happy.. even some of the guard girls(of whom i practically live with!) came up to me and they said as soon as me and Travis hooked up they could tell I was completely happy. Of course in public I still put on "my face". At work, guard, around friends.. only about three people know about me and Travis breaking up. And because of this LJ I know of one more that will.. no one else suspects I'm unhappy in any way.. I've always felt like maybe I wasn't ment to have a relationship with anyone.. but, then I finaly got in one that made me happy... but, if feels like I was just shown.. I dunno... like someone waving in my face... "haha, see! this is what you'll never have..."... i dunno... Just the numbness talking I guess... Not even 100% sure about what i'm typing... just what ever pops in my head.. it's all true... but, it's all just rambling... I dunno what to do... and suddenly I feel like i don't know/like the person i am anymore.. i'm just tired... of being me

Current Mood: numb

HOLY CRAP!!! It has been SOOO long since I've written in this thing! I don't know why, but I just felt like getting back into it for some reason. Well, a lot has changed since my last entry. I'm not dating John anymore... wow, that was a while ago, but I'm extremely happy right now and a few of you know why. And I've changed SO much to! Basically long story short (cause I don't feel like explaining it in detail... again), I've been through SO much this summer and I feel more mature and independent. Plus, being a manager and guard captain has helped with that in a big way! So, I guess I'll go now, cause it's like 4 in the morning... oh! And also started writing a new book! I might post some of it on here once I get bigger portion of it written. Then, yall can tell me what yall think and all that jazz!

...till next time,
BAMA

Current Mood: hungry

hmmm... this week has been VERY interesting... well, first off the whole thing about the person i was going to date SO did not happen! yeah, he ended up breaking my heart... but! i'm REALLY glad he did! cause, it gave me the oppurtunity to do what i've been thinking about doing the last month or so! and that is to ask john white back out... and he said... yes! yes, for those of you who are still unaware, me and john are back together! but, it's not gonna last just a lil time like last time! i don't know why, but things are really different this time! all i know is that i'm with a GREAT guy and i'm really REALLY happy for the first time in... well, a lONG time!
and on a side note... tonight+football game+band members= MAJOR fn drama!!! some major shit went down tonight! lets just say we have some really stupid and immature people in band right now... and YES, i'm joining colorguard! but, first i have to go to these training practice thingies after school till 5 every tues and thurs for the rest of nov then tryout in front of eric(colorguard instructor) to see if i can get on it! and i REALLY hope i do! i'm SO excited! especialy since i didn't think i would be able to get into guard b4 next year, but eric's letting people go from band to indoor guard! ^_^... well, i guess i'm outta words... buh-bye yall!

Love ya always!
Artemis

Current Mood: loved

i wrote a new poem! you should read it and tell me what you think!



The Power of a Great Mind

Bubble, bubble
Toil and trouble…
This is the sound
Of witch trouble

Look at the moon
On a hollows eve night,
You’ll see the hag on her broom
Fly across the moonlight

Look at the sky,
For the first star you see
It will grant you a wish
For free

At the end of the rainbow
There’s a sight to behold
If you can catch a leprechaun
He will share his gold

These are great things
once uncovered
by little minds
not yet discovered

the very minds
we tend to ignore
while we’re locked
behind our “grown up” doors

if only we took the time
to listen to what they have to say
we’d most likely be amazed
each and every day!

Because it’s not their experience
They live on from day to day
But their innocence
That paves their way

So remember, next time
you corrupt a great, young mind
it’s another wonderful dream
you’re leaving behind…

WHoa... it's been A LONG time since i've updated this thing. i've had a really... different? couple of weeks.... first off i found out that there's like 5 guys that like me that i've had crushes on for atleast 3 years.. one of'em kinda asked me out and i basically said yes.. and he's the one that i've like the most!!! but i don't know if we're atcualy going out yet. but i dont' think that he likes me as much either... i dunno i'm SO confused right now. i'm still going to try and give it a chance tho. cause i love him so much! and i feel warm and i get this realy cozy feeling around him! and there's this look in his eyes... i dunno... i just can't explain it! but i hope thing work out! well, ttyl! i'm outta stuff to say for now...

Love yall muches!
Artemis >.

'ello everyone! Bama here! well, lets see... what's going on with my life? hmmm.... i'm currently very bored right now... i'm reading 5 books!
1.Eye of the world, by robert jordan
2.Cold Fire, by dean koontz <--hehe, i like that last name... know idea y...
3.In the forests of the night, by amelia atwater-rhodes(rereading... great book! ^_^)
4.Roswell high(the outsider *which is the first one*)(rereading that too, also a great book!)
5.The wiccaning, by sister moon
6.oh yeah... i'm reading 6 books, bc i decided to reread the harry potter series before i get to reading the next book coming out... so i'm reading, harry potter and the sorcerer's stone by j.k. rowling

yeah kyra... you should be proud of me! ^_^ oh! and you need to tell me how to get to that one shop, for candles and stones and stuff! or atleast direct me there and we both can go! that would be better plus i miss ya way much! >.< nothing really happend from the hurricane... i'm sad for staci tho :-(, her house got flooded in bc there roof was messed up still from ivan... well, i guess that's it buh-byes!

Love always,
Bama *<8*)

create your own visited states map
or check out these Google Hacks.

somehow that doesn't seem right... it looks like i'm missing some states, because i've never been on an airplane, so shouldn't i have visited some of those states in between? *shrugs* ahwell! don't really care....

Well, i actualy talked my dad into letting me drive somewhere besides work today! ^_^ after work i got to go to staci's house (which dad said 'you better not go anywhere but straight to staci's and straight back, nowhere else, and YOU BETTER NOT DRIVE WITH ANYONE ELSE IN THE CAR!!!) well, kyra was supposed to go to staci's house to so, i was going to pick her up and bring over with me(what was one house out of the way?) but! then staci called and wanted me to (forsome reason) come pick her up then go get kyra then go back to her house... well, ashton spent the night at kyra's last night and so i ended up bringing her home from kyra's b4 returning back to staci's, then about 2 hours later xander comes over, and i end up giving him a ride to school, then we went to a convenient store(me, staci, and kyra) and got some drinks and some nutts..hehe... well, then it started pouring down rain and hail right b4 i was planing on leaving staci's so i would be able to drop kyra back off and get home at the time dad said i had to be home( he wanted me home a lil early cause well, he didn't trust me not to go straight to staci's and straight back.... ha! like he can't trust me.... right? ROFL) and i ended up calling him and talking to him saying that i didn't want to have to drive in a rain storm on my first time driving w/out a parental figure... and that he expected me home in about 15 min.... i thought uhoh! cause i could make it there in 15 if i went straight home, but i had to drop kyra off... so my clever mind(as usual) worked really fast and told me to tell him that we just started eating(when really we just got done eating) and i ended up letting that my me just enough time to get home and not get introuble! ^_^ i know, i know i'm great! well, there's most of my day in a.... briefing.... well, altogether i had LOADS of fun! ^_^ thx kyra, ashton, staci, and xander! i needed that! now time to do some more pc stuff then get to bed so i can reenter work world tomorow! buh-byes! ^_^

Love always
Bama ^_^

What a Girlfriend SHOULD Know and a boyfriend SHOULD do


Guys:Put your hands around her waist firmly
girls: lay your headback on his shoulder and put your arms on his.


Guys:whisper in her ear
Girls: giggle


Girls:whenever he tries to kiss you, don't just let him, kiss him back.


Girls: When you want to cuddle with him, tell him you're cold
Guys: automatically move closer to her. (if your stupid then you'll either say" me too " or you'll give her your jacket... don't)


Girls: During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder
guys: lift her chin up and kiss her.


Guys: When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too... and mean it.


Girls:When you're both laying under the stars, put yourhead on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heart beat
Guys: whisper in her ear and link your hands with hers.



Now make a wish about something you would like to happen
between you and your crush....



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STOP!! STOP!! STOP!!

now copy and repost this. if you don't you'll have bad relationships for 69 years

by 12pm tonight ur 1 true love will suddenly want you.
if you don't repost this than
your life (not just love life) will have bad luck forever.

Sweet but one of those things that if you don't then you'll feel horrible and have that feeling in your tummy of 'oh shit! I'm screwed if I don't'. Soo..I posted it have fun!


Bama Says: dunno why i posted it.... not like i think i won't have have bad relationships(if any) for 69 and up years... ahwell, i'm bored... yes...it is 1:34 in the morning... so? ^_^

A girl died in 1933 by a homicide murderer. He buried her in the ground when she was still alive. The murdered chanted, "Toma sota balcu" as he buried her. Now that you have read the chant, you will meet this little girl. In the middle of the night she will be on your ceiling. She will suffocate you like she was suffocated. If you post this, she will not bother you. Your kindness will be rewared.

um....mmk?

Hey Everyone!!! ^_^ sorry it's been a... lil while since i updated last... i've been kinda busy. Not like any one really cares, Krya's the only one who's said anything about it.. ahwell... Well, this is probably gonna be just one scrambled up entry.
Well, first off, most of yall know that me and John broke up(no one got hurt by it, mutual agreement kinda thing) And i don't know if i put this in my last entry and i'm too lazy to look, but i got a job!:-)
I'm working at the same Winn-Dixie that my dad works at, i started out as a bagger and now i'm a cashier... apperantly a good one, everytime they need someone i'm on top of the to call list! So i barely ever get a day off! Today i woke up happy cause i was supposed to be off today tomorow and the next day! But then at 1:06 i got out of the shower and my dad was standing there saying "hurry and get dressed, they need you to work today"... i hate that my dad works there! But, on the plus side, there's a lot of cute guys that work there! ^_^ And i think i atcualy like this one other cashier, Kyle. He's cute, and i get along with him really well! But, of course he's straight! ahwell... i don't really care any wayz... i've kinda given up on the guy thing... whats the point any wayz? right? is a nice loving boyfriend worth all that worrying even though you know you'll never have one?... i don't know, ask someone who's atcualy had one... well, i had one once... Travis, but i screwed that one all to hell and back, plus his parents made him move, and of course now that he's gone i can't stop thinking about him!!! it's driving me crazy! i dream about him all the time!!!
I'm outa school now, and TRYING to get my liscense... see, in dr.ed they used to do this thing called a pink slip where you would get that if you passed then just take it and get your liscense at the DMV but now instead of the pink slip you have to wait on the dr.ed instructor to put it that you passed in the computer and it would sent that info to the dmv office, but jackass coach harris is taking forever! and he tried to make me take the final exam, and tried to tell me that i didn't get a high enough score... but i straightened him out! ^_^ i just hope he puts me in the computer this coming up week, or he'll have to face the wrath of MY DAD!!! duh-duh-duhhhhhh!! Sucks for him! and it's my dad who is pissed with him, ROFL! and he's never met'em! Well, i guess i can go now, and if anyone is still keeping track or staying intouch of Travis, let me know. OH! And (kyra, you'll probably laugh and not believe me when you read this) but a while back i tried to get into witchcraft (well, wicca, but back then i didn't know there was a difference) and i thought about it and i started doing some research, and i'm getting into it again.. and kyra if you read this, i'd like to borrow some of your books, and if you have any advice let me know!

Love Always,
BAMA ^_^

Current Mood: ...zzzz...welcome to Winn-Dixi

Yeah, i know i haven't updated in awhile...and no... i'm not really updating now, sorry(too lazy) but i found a quiz on my FAVORITE SHOW! qaf!(queer as folk!) and i felt like posting it...don't like it? TOO DAMN BAD!!! sorry, bad day i guess.....


Emmett Honeycutt


Which QaF character are you?
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